Well, Albertsons sucks. I get paid 6.75 an hour to do too many things. Some of the people are nice but it sucks. You have to pay union dues and mine will be more than 2 hundred dollars by December! I was like no way I am not paying that. So I am looking for another job. To work at Albertsons you have to pay the union or you can't work there. So on my 31st day I will be quiting. Yesterday I had an enterview with See Candies and on Wednesday I have another one at Khols. I was getting these boots there for Halloween and I was waiting to be picked up so I went to fill out an app. I talked to this lady and she works in the make up department and when she first started she got paid 9.25 an hour. She told me that most of the other positions also pay good to. SOO I hope I get a job there. I can't wait till Wednesday. Any way gotta go I need to finish my stupid home work.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Long time no post
I got a new job working at Albertsons.
I still work at Pizza Hut.
I like the fact that I get paid every week and every other week I get paid twice.
Also that I get more money for my spending.
Now I work about 40 hours between both jobs.
It's not tiring and I enjoy working, I always have.
Works good. lifes good and moneys' good.
I got a new job working at Albertsons.
I still work at Pizza Hut.
I like the fact that I get paid every week and every other week I get paid twice.
Also that I get more money for my spending.
Now I work about 40 hours between both jobs.
It's not tiring and I enjoy working, I always have.
Works good. lifes good and moneys' good.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Baseball.
Two weeks ago me and my family had went to the park and played baseball for a few hours. It was really fun. When we were playing this drunk guy joined in and was the catcher. It couldn't throw the ball straight. We all took turns batting and pitching. I played almost all positions, except basemens because we didn't play with bases. Hopefully next time we will. The next day I was pretty sore. Mainly my right arm. I was throwing the farthest. My uncle was impressed in how far I could throw. He kept telling me that I have a good arm. My mom was saying that I take after my father. He could of went pro but screwed up is arm. After about two and a half hours we left and went home, except me I had to go to work.
Two weeks ago me and my family had went to the park and played baseball for a few hours. It was really fun. When we were playing this drunk guy joined in and was the catcher. It couldn't throw the ball straight. We all took turns batting and pitching. I played almost all positions, except basemens because we didn't play with bases. Hopefully next time we will. The next day I was pretty sore. Mainly my right arm. I was throwing the farthest. My uncle was impressed in how far I could throw. He kept telling me that I have a good arm. My mom was saying that I take after my father. He could of went pro but screwed up is arm. After about two and a half hours we left and went home, except me I had to go to work.
Monday, July 05, 2004
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
……LOST……..IN……..ACTION……
I’m lost in my own maze. Every thing now has taken me by surprise and has put me very close to misery. My own confusion between two and my own actions for the empty feeling inside. I feel like drowning, I feel like going some place real far so no one knows where to find me. Some where I can be lost. I am lost in this place I have created, lost in lies, deceit, and choice. No one I can tell... I don’t mean to hurt any one or lead any one on, but I have begun that process. I want out I don’t want any part. Every day it feels like my conscious is tearing at the insides of my heart, killing my ability to feel for another, to love another. It goes on and on. There’s so much pressure in me it feels as though I will burst into a thousand peaces. My heart is aching, my mind is weary and my body does the actions not knowing what will follow, taking all of my thoughts and turning them into ashes. Incinerating the way I truly feel. I’m sorry for what I have done to you and I hope that this won’t affect the way you live like the way is has affected me.
I want to be out no longer in I have acted once again with out thought leading my actions to be sin.
You’re in my thoughts with out question
And now more then friends which I think should have never begun
Because of the guilt that I now feel
My actions that took place b4 u I now face while trying to per sway myself that they are not true
I didn’t want this to take place,
I feel bad every time I see our reflection because of my expression upon my face.
For I know what goes on
And I wish that every day tomorrow would be gone like yesterday.
I am really sorry
This is the most guilt in history laid upon me
No one to blame but me
I don’t expect really any thing from you but hate towards me…I hope you live a better life with out I because so far mine hasn’t given me any thing to keep livin’ for…
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Friday, May 28, 2004
What do you do when all is lost. What do you say when all words are gone. Do you stand there and wonder why or do you ponder to your self. You try to think so hard about what you should do but your not sure where they would lead to. Every thought is an easy way out, but you stil know what this world it about. No one to ask for a helping hand becasue none of them would understand. You think you can do this all by your self, but your running out of thought.
You contemplate
All your hate
To suicidal thoughts
More than any one gots
It makes you worry
About what others see
++
One day of sorrow
But another for tomorrow
Not every thing will be the same
And if something goes wrong who's to blame
My life is like a pedal stool. It’s like a merry-go-round that just keeps going and going and you know where to get off, but don’t know how. It feels like I am surrounded in someone else’s mess that they didn’t want to clean up and when they tried it was to late because it already stained. It was them who messed up not you so why should you have to go down with them. Escape their wrong and get out into your world. Be on your own and be something that they could never be. They weren’t that much help for you and sometimes they would even make the situation worse. Most of the time I feel like I am trapped with the mistake and they pursue to make more mistakes, bringing me down with them. Most of the time they even notice what they are doing is hurting who they love and that when they think that they are helping there really not. How would they know how to help you if they can’t even help them self. You tried to help me but I wasn’t the person that needed help. It was so plain to see how much you were hurting your self and those around you. Just because you fell doesn’t mean that you have to bring all those surround you with you? You hurt me and you’re too messed up to see. You made your mistakes and every time you look at me you look in the eyes of your biggest mistake. You can’t change time the way it changes you. What you do has its effects and there responsibilities that follow after every one. Realize your mistakes and move on, start clean. Forget about the past and try that by accepting your wrongs and stop trying to fix the problem you have created, you’re only making them worse. First step commitment. Be committed to making your life a better one and knowing that no matter how hard it gets in the end it will be worth it. Every day you yell at me acting like it is going to change what you did. Realize your mistakes, don’t make them again and know that arguing doesn’t help the situation that you have brought us to. You made your actions. Take the responsibilities for the actions you created. Don’t blame those around you there not at fault. They don’t control you and your doings. You do something you live with it. You made me so live with it.
You can’t change the past.
You can’t change how long this will last.
You made your mistakes more then twice.
Why didn’t you notice.
Life it not the same.
And I’m not to blame.
Stop making me feel like this is not where I belong.
I’m your creation, your love, your life, your wrong.
Deal with me.
You will see.
I am not the same.
And I am not your animal that you can tame.
I’m not your puppet, you don’t control the strings.
I am what I am and I’m not you, I won’t do the same things.
I see where it has brought you.
I see you moving slowly trying to make it through.
But I didn’t make the same mistakes and never will.
I moved on, try to do the same and walk away from the past to start a new life on the other side of the hill.
You contemplate
All your hate
To suicidal thoughts
More than any one gots
It makes you worry
About what others see
++
One day of sorrow
But another for tomorrow
Not every thing will be the same
And if something goes wrong who's to blame
My life is like a pedal stool. It’s like a merry-go-round that just keeps going and going and you know where to get off, but don’t know how. It feels like I am surrounded in someone else’s mess that they didn’t want to clean up and when they tried it was to late because it already stained. It was them who messed up not you so why should you have to go down with them. Escape their wrong and get out into your world. Be on your own and be something that they could never be. They weren’t that much help for you and sometimes they would even make the situation worse. Most of the time I feel like I am trapped with the mistake and they pursue to make more mistakes, bringing me down with them. Most of the time they even notice what they are doing is hurting who they love and that when they think that they are helping there really not. How would they know how to help you if they can’t even help them self. You tried to help me but I wasn’t the person that needed help. It was so plain to see how much you were hurting your self and those around you. Just because you fell doesn’t mean that you have to bring all those surround you with you? You hurt me and you’re too messed up to see. You made your mistakes and every time you look at me you look in the eyes of your biggest mistake. You can’t change time the way it changes you. What you do has its effects and there responsibilities that follow after every one. Realize your mistakes and move on, start clean. Forget about the past and try that by accepting your wrongs and stop trying to fix the problem you have created, you’re only making them worse. First step commitment. Be committed to making your life a better one and knowing that no matter how hard it gets in the end it will be worth it. Every day you yell at me acting like it is going to change what you did. Realize your mistakes, don’t make them again and know that arguing doesn’t help the situation that you have brought us to. You made your actions. Take the responsibilities for the actions you created. Don’t blame those around you there not at fault. They don’t control you and your doings. You do something you live with it. You made me so live with it.
You can’t change the past.
You can’t change how long this will last.
You made your mistakes more then twice.
Why didn’t you notice.
Life it not the same.
And I’m not to blame.
Stop making me feel like this is not where I belong.
I’m your creation, your love, your life, your wrong.
Deal with me.
You will see.
I am not the same.
And I am not your animal that you can tame.
I’m not your puppet, you don’t control the strings.
I am what I am and I’m not you, I won’t do the same things.
I see where it has brought you.
I see you moving slowly trying to make it through.
But I didn’t make the same mistakes and never will.
I moved on, try to do the same and walk away from the past to start a new life on the other side of the hill.
Thursday, May 13, 2004
The other day I was at my friends house and there mom's friend and her kids were over. The daughter got a call saying that her grandma had a heart attack. Later that night, she died. This is the day before Mother's Day. One lost a grandma and one lost a mom. Pretty disturning to have heard this, but it has kind of helped me with the relationship with my mom. I know that she's not always going to be there and that I should respect her more. And that one day she will die, hopefully not in that way, and I won't beable to show her how much I love and care for her. Also the fact that she has pre-cancerest spots on her hand and over the last couple of months she has gotten more of them and if she doesn't treat them they will get worse. If they get worse then they will go to her blood tream and that is deffinently not good. I just prey that they don't get worse and that she doesn't get any more of them in the future.
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Monday, April 19, 2004
..
Life is complicated speically when your not situated
You get fustrated and agravated.
You just wish that every thing was steady
Just wait for the time when your nice and ready
But why wait your ready now not tomorrow
Stop feeling the pain and move on away from the sorrow
Why continue to endure this agony
Move on and forget about me.
Life is complicated speically when your not situated
You get fustrated and agravated.
You just wish that every thing was steady
Just wait for the time when your nice and ready
But why wait your ready now not tomorrow
Stop feeling the pain and move on away from the sorrow
Why continue to endure this agony
Move on and forget about me.
I have moved...right across the street from where I used to live. Reeal far. But I am not going to be staying there for long because I am going to be moving to live in a room that's in a house with other people..nice people I may add. This will hopefully take place May 1st. Just have to come up with the money.
Saturday, March 06, 2004
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
What is with guys being sexist?
I mean, like when they are say like 16 years of age they have girl friends and do a shit load of stuff with there friends and then when you get to be the same age, with a little bit more responsibility, they try to stop you from having boyfriends or in general "guy friends." Then when your brother is talking to your uncle right in front of you about a girl he knows and is about to hook up with her and their just laughing and every thing is fine. Now say that if a girl was to talk about a guy that she's enterested in and wants to hook up with him. Uncle goes crazy and brothers jumps into the conversation and both are totally distureb about the hole fact that she wants a guy. Why do brothers, uncles or dads think that it is fine for their nephew or son to hook up with a girl, but think that it is not right for their neice or daughter to hook up with a guy? Whats the big deal if it is a guy or a girl. A guy can screw 20 girls and every thing is fine, but if a girl screwed 20 guys she's a hore or a slut. It may not be sexist, but it is damm right close to it.
I mean, like when they are say like 16 years of age they have girl friends and do a shit load of stuff with there friends and then when you get to be the same age, with a little bit more responsibility, they try to stop you from having boyfriends or in general "guy friends." Then when your brother is talking to your uncle right in front of you about a girl he knows and is about to hook up with her and their just laughing and every thing is fine. Now say that if a girl was to talk about a guy that she's enterested in and wants to hook up with him. Uncle goes crazy and brothers jumps into the conversation and both are totally distureb about the hole fact that she wants a guy. Why do brothers, uncles or dads think that it is fine for their nephew or son to hook up with a girl, but think that it is not right for their neice or daughter to hook up with a guy? Whats the big deal if it is a guy or a girl. A guy can screw 20 girls and every thing is fine, but if a girl screwed 20 guys she's a hore or a slut. It may not be sexist, but it is damm right close to it.
Friday, February 27, 2004
Every time you tried to help out,
I turned you away,
Before I new what your words were all about.
Without caring what you had to say
I made the mistake of moving on
You told me many times that you cared,
But I didn't ever imagine that one day you would be gone
You said what was needed to be shared
And now your not here
To here the words I should have said
I felt you whisper them softly in my ear
As I laid there sleeping in bed
The words in my mouth began to melt
While listening to every word that you spoke
I desired so deeply to tell you how I truly felt
Until the day when I awoke.
SaRaH m.
2-27-04
I turned you away,
Before I new what your words were all about.
Without caring what you had to say
I made the mistake of moving on
You told me many times that you cared,
But I didn't ever imagine that one day you would be gone
You said what was needed to be shared
And now your not here
To here the words I should have said
I felt you whisper them softly in my ear
As I laid there sleeping in bed
The words in my mouth began to melt
While listening to every word that you spoke
I desired so deeply to tell you how I truly felt
Until the day when I awoke.
SaRaH m.
2-27-04
Friday, February 13, 2004
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Weeks of Finals
I hate the week of Finals, but I like the fact the we get out at 12 today and tomorrow which isn't a bad thing. Any way tomorrows finals are in my two worst classes. US History and Life Science. Math is also one of my worst classes except I already had the final and it wasn't even that hard. I was surprized that I knew more then half of what was on it. My English final is the easiest one, and why is because we just have to bring in five assignments from other classes, going back to when we were a fresh-men. I am in English right now and I havn't gotten the five things yet, but she said that we can have them by tomorrow, which is cool because it gives me more time. I need more time. Another cool thing is that I don't have to go to work til tomorrow at 6 and school gets out at 12 so I have plenty of time to do things until I go to work. This week sucked because of finals, but with all the aditives, it has turned out alright.
Having a job, friends, a place to live and an attitude to deal with every one I know, along with patience, makes my life the way it is and I am glad of them all.
I hate the week of Finals, but I like the fact the we get out at 12 today and tomorrow which isn't a bad thing. Any way tomorrows finals are in my two worst classes. US History and Life Science. Math is also one of my worst classes except I already had the final and it wasn't even that hard. I was surprized that I knew more then half of what was on it. My English final is the easiest one, and why is because we just have to bring in five assignments from other classes, going back to when we were a fresh-men. I am in English right now and I havn't gotten the five things yet, but she said that we can have them by tomorrow, which is cool because it gives me more time. I need more time. Another cool thing is that I don't have to go to work til tomorrow at 6 and school gets out at 12 so I have plenty of time to do things until I go to work. This week sucked because of finals, but with all the aditives, it has turned out alright.
Having a job, friends, a place to live and an attitude to deal with every one I know, along with patience, makes my life the way it is and I am glad of them all.
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
School...work..guys..girls..
Been kind of busy lately and havn't been able to post anything for a month or w/e it says on there. Well, any way I got a job at Pizza Hut about five weeks ago and I have gotten two pay checks all ready. I think I have about 250, but not sure..going to spend some today to get my hair done.. Spent a lot of money in the last couple of weeks and got a lot of tips. That is one very good thing about my job is that I get tips and that way I always have money on me...Always. The hard part of it all is to not spend it all.
Been kind of busy lately and havn't been able to post anything for a month or w/e it says on there. Well, any way I got a job at Pizza Hut about five weeks ago and I have gotten two pay checks all ready. I think I have about 250, but not sure..going to spend some today to get my hair done.. Spent a lot of money in the last couple of weeks and got a lot of tips. That is one very good thing about my job is that I get tips and that way I always have money on me...Always. The hard part of it all is to not spend it all.
Monday, December 15, 2003
9 Days til Christmas
I still havn't even gone Christmas shopping yet.
This sucks...I need more money..all I have is thirty dollars to buy presents for a lot of people..I need a job..oh yeah thats right I have to call Pizza Hut about working there. I have turned in three aplications already. The second one the asistent manager threw it away, but he nolonger works there, so what ever...Hopefully I get a job there before Christmas so I can buy presents for people and have money to get stuff..yeah..
I still havn't even gone Christmas shopping yet.
This sucks...I need more money..all I have is thirty dollars to buy presents for a lot of people..I need a job..oh yeah thats right I have to call Pizza Hut about working there. I have turned in three aplications already. The second one the asistent manager threw it away, but he nolonger works there, so what ever...Hopefully I get a job there before Christmas so I can buy presents for people and have money to get stuff..yeah..
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Saturday, November 08, 2003
Love, an ever growing flower. A bottomless feeling that goes on for ever, in all directions. Always in existance even though you don't acknowledge it. Just because you can't feel or see love, doesn't mean that it isn't there. Love encompases you and fills the empty spaces. Love is like a game, but that never ends. Love does not have a physical appearence, but takes place in the form of a body of a person.
Musical masterpeices brought to my attention and then to me ear to listen to. My heart to feel and my mind to define. Define what the bdoy is experiencing. When the music begins to play, the body commences to react to the sound that have begun. London Symphony Orchestra would bring classical sounds, brought to by the masters lkike Mozart, Beethoven, and Bach. To some depressing, but to others light and entertaining.
"One Thousand"
One thousand lies,
One thousand cries
For one thousand years
There's one thousand tears
One thousand sun sets
One thousand sun rises
One thousand friends
One thousand enemy's
One thousand lovers
One thousand heartbreaks
One thousand breath's
One thousand death's
One thousand beginnings
One thousand endings
One thousand mistakes
One thousand reasons
One thousand masks
One thousand faces
One world,
One God,
One life,
One story,
One thousand pages.
One thousand lies,
One thousand cries
For one thousand years
There's one thousand tears
One thousand sun sets
One thousand sun rises
One thousand friends
One thousand enemy's
One thousand lovers
One thousand heartbreaks
One thousand breath's
One thousand death's
One thousand beginnings
One thousand endings
One thousand mistakes
One thousand reasons
One thousand masks
One thousand faces
One world,
One God,
One life,
One story,
One thousand pages.
The one you love more than any thing in the world, slips away. Your reason for living, your life is nolonger irrisitable.
Your at the edge of the mountain ready to jump. You were once here before, ready to jump. Waiting for the moment to fall to your death, but you fall on the other side because you had trust . Now standing there ready to jump because the love has ran dry and life just doesn't have the irrisitable desire. Your motivation for any thing died along with you companion that you loved so ever much. You take one step..just one. Where do you land?
Your at the edge of the mountain ready to jump. You were once here before, ready to jump. Waiting for the moment to fall to your death, but you fall on the other side because you had trust . Now standing there ready to jump because the love has ran dry and life just doesn't have the irrisitable desire. Your motivation for any thing died along with you companion that you loved so ever much. You take one step..just one. Where do you land?
You touched the heart that could never be touched
You felt the insides that could never be felt
You opened the door that had never been opened before
You played the part, straight from your heart
You song the words from the song
You took the path and walked along
You felt the insides that could never be felt
You opened the door that had never been opened before
You played the part, straight from your heart
You song the words from the song
You took the path and walked along
"I always say finish what you started before starting another thing."
You started this relationship by a question that lead to a commitment between two people, that changed from being just friends, to being close friends with benifits and encluding feelings for each other that one day would evolve into some thing stronger than just close friends with benifits committed to each other, at heart, at mind, but then one day feelings change to where the commitment would end or no longer be in session, except that some one spoke her mind to keep the devoted commitment to each other as close friends with benefits, that have feelings toward each other, going to see where the two would end up in the future that awaits them.
You started this relationship by a question that lead to a commitment between two people, that changed from being just friends, to being close friends with benifits and encluding feelings for each other that one day would evolve into some thing stronger than just close friends with benifits committed to each other, at heart, at mind, but then one day feelings change to where the commitment would end or no longer be in session, except that some one spoke her mind to keep the devoted commitment to each other as close friends with benefits, that have feelings toward each other, going to see where the two would end up in the future that awaits them.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
"Unspoken Commitment"
You said the words, you asked the question,
And then we took the action
After awhile you felt regret occur in you and after time it grew stronger
Maybe it all was too sudden for you or you wanted it, but not what would come after
To feel less regret you continued to pursue what seemed like a relationship or some kind of commitment
Except it only made you feel guilty, but you still tried to interact in some way, and when we were around your friends it was different
All at the same time you were afraid that if you were or were not flirtatious or interacting with me different from all your friends, that you would hurt me
Then you started to back off, maybe you thought, “If I back off maybe she would too,” but it came out differently
For a while you stopped with the flirting and interacting and then you started again, but only for a week or two
Sometimes when I would come and hang out or first enter a room, you would glance over, but wouldn’t say “Hi” and when I was leaving you didn’t act like you normally did and it felt like our friend ship was through
Sometimes you would act like a totally different person and act like I wasn’t even standing a few feet away
It was like all of your attention was directed to another person and it didn’t seem like it mattered to you if I had something to say
A couple of times I had showed up and you acknowledged my presence and said hi,
But that was only because the “person” that you usually gave your attention to was absent and when I was leaving, when she wasn’t there, you actually said “Bai”
A week or two passed by and I realized that you had liked someone else, but I wasn’t the only one
It was obvious to our friends and then when you got what you wanted
it was obvious that you were done
You did the same thing to her as
you did to me
You start some thing and then
when it gets to the part where you can’t or don’t want to handle it any more you stop and let it all be
To tell you the truth it hurt me to see you with another
And I hid it, acted like it wasn’t a bother
Ever since, I have been questioning every thought I ever thought about you and trying to create new thoughts to replace the old
The one big thought that keeps coming back was that I loved you and that should it ever be told
I kept thinking that I loved you and that one day we would be together
But all of that seemed to vanish and I thought again that I loved you, maybe I do or the same thought will just keep occurring over and over
I once read in a book that the biggest pain of all is to love some one and never have the courage to tell them, but then my friend said the biggest pain of all is to love some one and for them to not love you in return
Either way your heart fills with anguish and feels the pain build up inside, then it gets to the point where it begins to burn
In the beginning you were afraid that you would hurt me and you didn’t want to start a relationship because of your fear in hurting me
I’m not going to say that you hurt me, but you were very close and since I don’t have the courage to tell you that I might love you, my emotional feeling I will never express for you to see
It hurt me more to see you interested in other girls other then me and every time you started to be interested in other girls you and I would become distant
I thought about the words you said, the actions that we made and what you thought was a commitment
I didn’t ever think that I would be some one’s first or that I would want you to be my first and my last
And as the days go by, you seem to fade along with the old news from my past
Except that the old news keeps finding its way back to the surface
And the only way to keep it under is to commit my feelings I have for you and to say them to your face
For me to do that I need to open my eyes
And take off what I have been hiding behind for so long, a disguise.
You said the words, you asked the question,
And then we took the action
After awhile you felt regret occur in you and after time it grew stronger
Maybe it all was too sudden for you or you wanted it, but not what would come after
To feel less regret you continued to pursue what seemed like a relationship or some kind of commitment
Except it only made you feel guilty, but you still tried to interact in some way, and when we were around your friends it was different
All at the same time you were afraid that if you were or were not flirtatious or interacting with me different from all your friends, that you would hurt me
Then you started to back off, maybe you thought, “If I back off maybe she would too,” but it came out differently
For a while you stopped with the flirting and interacting and then you started again, but only for a week or two
Sometimes when I would come and hang out or first enter a room, you would glance over, but wouldn’t say “Hi” and when I was leaving you didn’t act like you normally did and it felt like our friend ship was through
Sometimes you would act like a totally different person and act like I wasn’t even standing a few feet away
It was like all of your attention was directed to another person and it didn’t seem like it mattered to you if I had something to say
A couple of times I had showed up and you acknowledged my presence and said hi,
But that was only because the “person” that you usually gave your attention to was absent and when I was leaving, when she wasn’t there, you actually said “Bai”
A week or two passed by and I realized that you had liked someone else, but I wasn’t the only one
It was obvious to our friends and then when you got what you wanted
it was obvious that you were done
You did the same thing to her as
you did to me
You start some thing and then
when it gets to the part where you can’t or don’t want to handle it any more you stop and let it all be
To tell you the truth it hurt me to see you with another
And I hid it, acted like it wasn’t a bother
Ever since, I have been questioning every thought I ever thought about you and trying to create new thoughts to replace the old
The one big thought that keeps coming back was that I loved you and that should it ever be told
I kept thinking that I loved you and that one day we would be together
But all of that seemed to vanish and I thought again that I loved you, maybe I do or the same thought will just keep occurring over and over
I once read in a book that the biggest pain of all is to love some one and never have the courage to tell them, but then my friend said the biggest pain of all is to love some one and for them to not love you in return
Either way your heart fills with anguish and feels the pain build up inside, then it gets to the point where it begins to burn
In the beginning you were afraid that you would hurt me and you didn’t want to start a relationship because of your fear in hurting me
I’m not going to say that you hurt me, but you were very close and since I don’t have the courage to tell you that I might love you, my emotional feeling I will never express for you to see
It hurt me more to see you interested in other girls other then me and every time you started to be interested in other girls you and I would become distant
I thought about the words you said, the actions that we made and what you thought was a commitment
I didn’t ever think that I would be some one’s first or that I would want you to be my first and my last
And as the days go by, you seem to fade along with the old news from my past
Except that the old news keeps finding its way back to the surface
And the only way to keep it under is to commit my feelings I have for you and to say them to your face
For me to do that I need to open my eyes
And take off what I have been hiding behind for so long, a disguise.
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Saturday, October 04, 2003
Today is my brother's 18th birhtday and we are about to do the cake...well I think we are any way...laterz.
Saturday, September 20, 2003
...
I hear the silence of the night,
I see the moon in the sky shinning light
I feel you as you lay me down to sleep,
And your jentle touch I will keep
I give to you my heart, the key
To my soul, because with you I see
A future being not alone,
But with the one in my mind that has been shown
You have no name, you have no face
Your jentle touch marks its place
You have no identity, but you have the touch
That makes me love you so much
You now hold in your hand,
The key to roam through all my land
Place the key beside your heart, now turn...
..Feel and see, Now watch it burn.
Sunday, September 14, 2003
There's nothing I want more then for you to love me.
I love you and I don't even think you love me.
I keep qestioning my love for you.
Why? I ask myself, "Why should I love you the way I do when I question you loving me?"
I never have loved some one the way I love you.
You are my first love and my last love.
After being in love with I don't even imagine loving any one, but you.
It feels like you have broken my heart for ever loving again, but I still find a way to love you.
My heart isn't broken and I find it imposible for you to break my heart or to be mad at you.
Love is the barrier of showing what hate I may have for you.
It stops me from loving any one but you and from hating you.
I ask you what is the barrier from you loving me?
I love you and I don't even think you love me.
I keep qestioning my love for you.
Why? I ask myself, "Why should I love you the way I do when I question you loving me?"
I never have loved some one the way I love you.
You are my first love and my last love.
After being in love with I don't even imagine loving any one, but you.
It feels like you have broken my heart for ever loving again, but I still find a way to love you.
My heart isn't broken and I find it imposible for you to break my heart or to be mad at you.
Love is the barrier of showing what hate I may have for you.
It stops me from loving any one but you and from hating you.
I ask you what is the barrier from you loving me?
My biggest wonder is why you don't love me, your first, my first.
When you started to love me it was to late, I was already falling in love with some one other than you.
But was it meant to be with this some one other than you?
My heart is still in love with you and will always be in love with you, no one other than you.
Nothing will change the way I feel for you.
You are my first and you are my last.
You started to love me, but it was to late I was already falling in love with some one new.
Why is it you start to love me when I start to falling in love with some one other than you?
My biggest fear is that you and I will never love each other at the same time.
When you started to love me it was to late, I was already falling in love with some one other than you.
But was it meant to be with this some one other than you?
My heart is still in love with you and will always be in love with you, no one other than you.
Nothing will change the way I feel for you.
You are my first and you are my last.
You started to love me, but it was to late I was already falling in love with some one new.
Why is it you start to love me when I start to falling in love with some one other than you?
My biggest fear is that you and I will never love each other at the same time.
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Man does school suck. The people are pretty cool, but the part when you have to wake up early and sit all day on umcomfortablt seats, it is not fun at all and it really does suck.
Sunday, September 07, 2003
The most wonderful feeling of all is love. The worst feeling of all is to love someone and not have the courage to tell them. The most wonderful feeling is to love, but where there is love there is pain. Without love there is still pain and emptiness inside of us. It’s a void that needs to be filled, to stop feeling the pain of emptiness. That’s an emotion that we can not avoid. So when we love we feel all the good things that come with it, as well as the pain. When we don’t love or receive love, we are empty and feel pain. To love and to receive love. Either way you get hurt, but to love another, you are giving them the same feeling that they give you, by loving them. The most wonderful feeling of all and if you love someone, tell them or else you are giving yourself the worst feeling of all and disappointing you or the other of what could be.
---
Most of our lives we continue to search for some one to fill the emptiness inside of us. To fill the void in our hearts and our mind. Then most of our lives there is some one out there waiting for some one to come along and fill the void that is inside them. Our lives pertain love and feelings that come and go. Feelings that make us wonder if it's real. For some, they may never feel or experience such feelings, for they are not loved or believe in such things or there is no one to give a feeling to them. Maybe there is, but they don't have the courage to. If you have feelings for another that continue to build up inside you, tell them to their face. If you love some one gather you courage and tell them .Either in private or in front of a large group to hear. The person you tell it to may just feell the same for you. Who knows, it may be the person you were searching or waiting for most of you life.
---
Why is it we need some one to love us and for us to love another? Is it because we do not want to love another without them loving us first or is it because we choose not to scacrafice our heart, by loving another before they love us? By loving them we could not be loved in return. Maybe it's that sudden fear that invades in our minds. "I love him/her, but what if he/she doesn't love me?" That's our fear in loving some one. The dought that we our not loved in return. The fear of our hearts being broken because we are not loved by the one we love. What if the one we loved started to love us back, but it was to late becasue we didn't love them anymore? Our hearts change who we love over time and with the help of our minds. We have that constant desire for us to be loved and we may not acknowladge it, but we do. The persistant "friend" that wants to be more then friends and we still call it friends when we know that we want to be more than just friends, but that same fear enters into our body. Will they love me or will I even love them? Will I break their heart or will I become heart broken for the first time or again? Sometimes we just have to make the scacrafice of taking the first step, loving them first.
---
---
Most of our lives we continue to search for some one to fill the emptiness inside of us. To fill the void in our hearts and our mind. Then most of our lives there is some one out there waiting for some one to come along and fill the void that is inside them. Our lives pertain love and feelings that come and go. Feelings that make us wonder if it's real. For some, they may never feel or experience such feelings, for they are not loved or believe in such things or there is no one to give a feeling to them. Maybe there is, but they don't have the courage to. If you have feelings for another that continue to build up inside you, tell them to their face. If you love some one gather you courage and tell them .Either in private or in front of a large group to hear. The person you tell it to may just feell the same for you. Who knows, it may be the person you were searching or waiting for most of you life.
---
Why is it we need some one to love us and for us to love another? Is it because we do not want to love another without them loving us first or is it because we choose not to scacrafice our heart, by loving another before they love us? By loving them we could not be loved in return. Maybe it's that sudden fear that invades in our minds. "I love him/her, but what if he/she doesn't love me?" That's our fear in loving some one. The dought that we our not loved in return. The fear of our hearts being broken because we are not loved by the one we love. What if the one we loved started to love us back, but it was to late becasue we didn't love them anymore? Our hearts change who we love over time and with the help of our minds. We have that constant desire for us to be loved and we may not acknowladge it, but we do. The persistant "friend" that wants to be more then friends and we still call it friends when we know that we want to be more than just friends, but that same fear enters into our body. Will they love me or will I even love them? Will I break their heart or will I become heart broken for the first time or again? Sometimes we just have to make the scacrafice of taking the first step, loving them first.
---
Sunday, August 31, 2003
Last night I went to a friends house and spent the night with a few other people. Sabrina and Liza went to be around one and Lizzie went to bed at like five thirty. Then there's me who stays up to watch the sunrise, but I couldn't really see the sun. I went to sleep at like seven in the morning. I looked in the mirror and I had this thin red line under my eyes. Then I had wroke up at like almost ten and I had broken sleep. I was falling alseep in church. I am still tired and my eyes burn.
Thursday, August 28, 2003
Ok today I think it was my day to get hurt. Why I say that is I crashed into the wall with my bike because it didn't have any brakes and then when I got home I smashed my finger in the door that leads into the garage. That door is fucken made out of steel or something becuase it hurt like a mother fucker. My finger still hurts.
Monday, August 25, 2003
Man im I tired. Like twenty minutes ago I got back from Knotts. Ten hours of walking and going on rides. My feet hurt and are still wet. I went on this one ride, but I forgot the name of it, and I got soaked. I was drenched in water. It was really fun though and I had fun. I got this key chain and my sister got this water bottle for my mom. My uncle got some shot glasses and my brother didn't get any thing. I can't wait to go to Six Flages!
Sunday, August 24, 2003
"....."
Don't wanna die, but don't wanna live.
Wanna sleep, but don't wanna close your eyes.
Don't wanna love, but don't wanna hate.
Wanna talk, but don't wanna move your lips.
Don't wanna observe, but don't wanna watch.
Wanna write, but don't wanna think.
Don't wanna die, but don't wanna live.
Wanna sleep, but don't wanna close your eyes.
Don't wanna love, but don't wanna hate.
Wanna talk, but don't wanna move your lips.
Don't wanna observe, but don't wanna watch.
Wanna write, but don't wanna think.
Standing beside me are:
Sabrina, Jeremy, and Wes.
Now Sab and Jere are wreling or tickling eacth other or what ever they are doing. NOw Wes is pulling Jeremys leg. THis is boring..:( Wait now he is kicking him..Getting a lilttle interesting..wait..nope..BORING!!...I'll just ejnore it and continue to chat online. Nooffense to the people that I mentioned..
Sabrina, Jeremy, and Wes.
Now Sab and Jere are wreling or tickling eacth other or what ever they are doing. NOw Wes is pulling Jeremys leg. THis is boring..:( Wait now he is kicking him..Getting a lilttle interesting..wait..nope..BORING!!...I'll just ejnore it and continue to chat online. Nooffense to the people that I mentioned..
Friday, August 22, 2003
Wow it has been awhile since the last time I have posted. I don't really have much to post, but that I am tired and my mom is coming tomorrow...Later...
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
"What color do you see the world in?"
Red/Green/Blue: To you, the world is logical. Everything happens for a reason, life is scientific. You like to find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this quiz in order to realize this.
Red/Green/Blue: To you, the world is logical. Everything happens for a reason, life is scientific. You like to find solutions. I doubt you needed to take this quiz in order to realize this.
How crazy are you?
you are 100% nutter. now, would you care for a slice of guinniepig and wombat salad? its the most amazing combination..... *laughs hysterically* *suddenly stops* no, seroiusly they taste pretty good togther.......
you are 100% nutter. now, would you care for a slice of guinniepig and wombat salad? its the most amazing combination..... *laughs hysterically* *suddenly stops* no, seroiusly they taste pretty good togther.......
"What Type Of Anime Character Are You?"
You're An Intellectual! You can always be found reading or on the computer. People always come to you when they need information. You don't really care about love at this point, your only goal is to improve your mind. After all, knowledge is power!
You're An Intellectual! You can always be found reading or on the computer. People always come to you when they need information. You don't really care about love at this point, your only goal is to improve your mind. After all, knowledge is power!
"what kind of girl are you?" - Results:
creative: you are an individual at school and thats why your friends all think you're amazing. you offer a shoulder to cry on when people need on, you give good advice and overall a very good friend. you enjoy being in the company of others, particularly those closest to you and sometimes depend on your friends too much. but apart from being dependent, you can mostly make it on your own and excel over others. you are fun, good natured and a great person to be around!
creative: you are an individual at school and thats why your friends all think you're amazing. you offer a shoulder to cry on when people need on, you give good advice and overall a very good friend. you enjoy being in the company of others, particularly those closest to you and sometimes depend on your friends too much. but apart from being dependent, you can mostly make it on your own and excel over others. you are fun, good natured and a great person to be around!
What kind of kiss are you?
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss that never lessens and always blows your partner away like the first time.
"Which Old Hollywood Movie Star are YOU?" - Results:
YOU ARE MARILYN MONROE!!! You are the definition of Hollywood glam! You use your looks and charm to get you whatever you want, and you are a role model to young girls all over the world! You can have your pick of any man you want! HAVE FUN WITH THAT! Oh, and p.s. You're gorgeous!
Paste this code into your web page to show off your result to others:
Alright another day at work. I hope that I get to sleep in tomorrow because I am tired, but that's just because it is still the morning.
Monday, August 11, 2003
Sunday, August 10, 2003
Today
First was church and then went swimming, twice and also the hot tub. Sorry Sean you missed out.
First was church and then went swimming, twice and also the hot tub. Sorry Sean you missed out.
Saturday, August 09, 2003
Boring and long day.
Why is it that men/guys have the women in the house doing the cleaning and have themselves out in the garage doing the harder work, when the women are just as capable of doing the same thing?
Why is it that men/guys have the women in the house doing the cleaning and have themselves out in the garage doing the harder work, when the women are just as capable of doing the same thing?
Friday, August 08, 2003
I am soo board and I want to do something. At the same time I'm tired out of my mind and want to go to sleep. For the last couple of days I have been getting up at a little past 6 in the morning and going to bed at like 12. Also for the last couple of days I have been reading this book called "First to Die" and it is pretty good. I am almost done with it. 471 peges and I have been reading it since late Tuesday night. The author of the book is James Patterson. He also wrote Along Came A Spider. I am on Chp. 100 and I have like 100 pages left. I think that I'm going to go read the rest of it and if not I will be going somewhere.
Thursday, August 07, 2003
Work
Right now I am at work filling in for Lizzie and the cool thing about it, besides the money, is that I get to be on the computer all day. Lately I haven't had a lot of time to be on the computer, which sucks because then I can't post or check/write e-mails or chat with friends online. I am on break right now that is why I am posting, but if I wasn't I would be typing in numbers into the computer. I had to wake up at 6:20 yesterday to go to Norwalk to get birth certificates. For three of them cost like 56 bucks. My uncle wanted to get there early so he wouldn't have to wait in a long line or be stuck in traffic. Then in the afternoon I biked to main street to get my social security card/number. I now have the number, but I'm not going to have the card until like three weeks or something like that. My eyes burn!!.....Going to get some coffee...
Right now I am at work filling in for Lizzie and the cool thing about it, besides the money, is that I get to be on the computer all day. Lately I haven't had a lot of time to be on the computer, which sucks because then I can't post or check/write e-mails or chat with friends online. I am on break right now that is why I am posting, but if I wasn't I would be typing in numbers into the computer. I had to wake up at 6:20 yesterday to go to Norwalk to get birth certificates. For three of them cost like 56 bucks. My uncle wanted to get there early so he wouldn't have to wait in a long line or be stuck in traffic. Then in the afternoon I biked to main street to get my social security card/number. I now have the number, but I'm not going to have the card until like three weeks or something like that. My eyes burn!!.....Going to get some coffee...
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Saturday, August 02, 2003
Thursday, July 31, 2003
Well, I just got back from youth and when I was there I had choked on my lolipop and it made my throte hurt real bad. So what I did to make it not burn was eat ice cream. It helped. Right now I am listening to my brother puke and I am trying not to and the sounds are making me feel sick. Ewww!!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
Subway called me today for and interveiw and I wasn't here. They told my brother to call back to set an interveiw, but they did not leave a call back number..Stupid morons..
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Today me and my brother were playing chatch with a hard baseball and when he threw it it went high up in the air and when I caught it it fell out of my glove and hit me in the head. Then later on I got hit on the side of my mouth and that one hurt more becuse the other day in PE I got hit on the same spot by a on coming basketball. I'm glad that I only have one more week of summer school. I hope and prey that I get the job at Subway and IF I don't get it I will lay my face in a pillow and cry...Well, not really, but I will be a little disapointed. A little while ago I got back from Josh's birthday party and for some reason my eyes burn. They have been burning almost all day long. Stop burning! Stop burning! Stop burning! And the thing is I'm really not that tired.
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Friday, July 11, 2003
My sister and brother are probably going to be gone all of next week and that means that me and my uncle will be the only ones there, but the bad part of that is that I might have to do the dishes all next week, just like I have been all of this week. That sucks so much. Man my hands are already getting pruned.
Thursday, July 10, 2003
I benched 95 pounds today in PE. So now my max is 95 and last time it was 75. It increased by 20 pounds and it was only my third time benching, ever.
*My head hurts*
So many different wonders and expectations that we have in our life and so many differemt trials that we are faced with every day. Our curiousity on why do the things we think about and the things we do, even happen? Why is life created and why is it destroyed? What ever which way we turn there is pain that we encounter with and different circumstances that we have to deal with and go through. Life, among with other things are difficult and has a cause and effect. What you did or do will end up with some kind of effect and take you to some place in your life and have you become this person. So if what you did yesterday or two years ago didn't happen, you wouldn't be the person you are today or be in the place you are right now. Every desicion or step you make, will take you some where and start you on a road that will develope you into some one that may make a difference in the world one day. So be carefull on the choices that you make and think before you speak and act.
Love Lesson: "It is only with the one can see rightly; what is essential is visible to the eye."
*My head hurts*
So many different wonders and expectations that we have in our life and so many differemt trials that we are faced with every day. Our curiousity on why do the things we think about and the things we do, even happen? Why is life created and why is it destroyed? What ever which way we turn there is pain that we encounter with and different circumstances that we have to deal with and go through. Life, among with other things are difficult and has a cause and effect. What you did or do will end up with some kind of effect and take you to some place in your life and have you become this person. So if what you did yesterday or two years ago didn't happen, you wouldn't be the person you are today or be in the place you are right now. Every desicion or step you make, will take you some where and start you on a road that will develope you into some one that may make a difference in the world one day. So be carefull on the choices that you make and think before you speak and act.
Love Lesson: "It is only with the one can see rightly; what is essential is visible to the eye."
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
Yeah did you see the picture of me? If you didn't click the grrrrrr! and then you will bebale to see me when I was a little girl with blonde hair.
Today my PE teacher woudln't let me curl the 45 pound bar, but hten I said only once come on. She wouldn't let me because tomorrow we are going to do our max. My first atempt on benching was 75 pounds and now that I have been doing more I wonder what it will be this time. Today my PE teacher asked me if I did this at my olod school and I said no because I didn't take PE in my old school and that I have only taken PE once. Then she said, "Your pretty strong and since the first time that you were in this class you have gotten stronger." Then I had told her that in this class it is my ifrst time benching ever and she was like wow. After I had asked her one more time and then she said ok once and so I did one curl with the 45 pound bar. I was glad that I got to do it atleast one time.
Ok yesterday I put like forty tic-tacs in my mouth because Josh had gave me a thing of them and so I poured all of them in my hand and I was like say I won't and so I put them in my mouth. Josh was just like ewww and I of course couldn't say anything so I just shool my head and sat there.
Tomorrow I hope to benche the most out of all the girl's in the class and if I do that will be soo awesome.....Later....
Love Lesson: "To be in love is to be worthy of love."
Today my PE teacher woudln't let me curl the 45 pound bar, but hten I said only once come on. She wouldn't let me because tomorrow we are going to do our max. My first atempt on benching was 75 pounds and now that I have been doing more I wonder what it will be this time. Today my PE teacher asked me if I did this at my olod school and I said no because I didn't take PE in my old school and that I have only taken PE once. Then she said, "Your pretty strong and since the first time that you were in this class you have gotten stronger." Then I had told her that in this class it is my ifrst time benching ever and she was like wow. After I had asked her one more time and then she said ok once and so I did one curl with the 45 pound bar. I was glad that I got to do it atleast one time.
Ok yesterday I put like forty tic-tacs in my mouth because Josh had gave me a thing of them and so I poured all of them in my hand and I was like say I won't and so I put them in my mouth. Josh was just like ewww and I of course couldn't say anything so I just shool my head and sat there.
Tomorrow I hope to benche the most out of all the girl's in the class and if I do that will be soo awesome.....Later....
Love Lesson: "To be in love is to be worthy of love."
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
I just put forty Tic-tacs in my mouth. Man is my mouth drewling...Shit one just went down my throat...
Ok today in the weight orom I benched like 70or 75 and the thing is it wasn't even that hard. I mean because when I first tried to bench I couldn't even lift the bar ant the bar was only 45 pounds. Now I can do the bar with no sweat an d put more weight on. Tomorrow I think taht the girls are doing their max, but I'm not that sure. There is this one guy that benches 210 pounds and he weighs 200. He is soo fucken strong, but he's not the strongest guy in the class. There is this other guy that benches just a little bit more then he does, but not that much more. i'm pretty sure that he could bench me and a lot of other people. A lot of people think that I am strong, but i'm not that strong. I mean I am a lot stronger then most girls, just not the strongest. Today I think that I could of benched a lot more, but my right rist was hurting a lot. Like the past just wouldn't go away and stuff. It really sucked because I wanted to do more develope more muscles.
Last night I was up until like one thirty looking through pictures to put in this scrap book thing that I am putting together. Then I woke up at like 8 and I was soo tired. My eyes were actually more tired then any thing else. I found this one picture of me when I was almost one and a half and I have a mo-hawk, but only with the hair that is on top of my head not the sides and I am sitting in my high chiar. I cound a lot of other pictures that I couldn't beleive my mom or who ever took the picture took it. Some of them I was half naked or getting my diaper changed. What was with our parents? I mean letting us walk outside naked and swim naked and walk around with our friends with no top on. I saw like ten or more pictures of me with no clothes on or no shirt on. What would people think if we all still did that like we were little kids?
Last night I was up until like one thirty looking through pictures to put in this scrap book thing that I am putting together. Then I woke up at like 8 and I was soo tired. My eyes were actually more tired then any thing else. I found this one picture of me when I was almost one and a half and I have a mo-hawk, but only with the hair that is on top of my head not the sides and I am sitting in my high chiar. I cound a lot of other pictures that I couldn't beleive my mom or who ever took the picture took it. Some of them I was half naked or getting my diaper changed. What was with our parents? I mean letting us walk outside naked and swim naked and walk around with our friends with no top on. I saw like ten or more pictures of me with no clothes on or no shirt on. What would people think if we all still did that like we were little kids?
Monday, July 07, 2003
Ok, for the last couple of weeks I have been going to summer school and taking PE. In PE I have been getting exercise and junk, and lifting weights. Sometimes we have to stay outside for the first hour and from that I got a tan. I used to be really white, like snow or something. If you don't know my appetite or how I eat, I eat very little, but if I am really hungry or just eat because I am really board out of my mind, I eat a lot. Since I don't eat that much, I am exercising and losing weight, I guess, so I am burning fat that I already have and either turning it into muscle or getting rid of it. Meaning that I am not gaining weight and that I am losing weight, but the thing it that I don't really feel like I am, just really in my arms. Josh says that I look thinner and smaller, but I don't know because I look at myself every day and he doesn't. I don't notice as much as he does. So do I actually look smaller then I did a couple of weeks ago? My goal is to fit into a two peice bathing suit and feel and look good in it and go swimming. I hope that that happens before summer is over. Well, I am going to go eat...Later...
Lisa got me a present. The present was a skirt, a mini-skirt. It fits and I like it and I wore it out for two or three hours and then when I got back I changee back into my Dickies. Dickies are sweet and I think that they are the only type of pants that I own. I have like four or five pairs of Dickies. On Saturday Lizzie came to my house at 11:10 am and woke me up and said happy birthday! I was sleeping and she woke me up, but I think that it was sweet of her to come to my house and wish me a happy birthday. I love oyou Lizzie and I can't wait for you to come back from Chico, I think I spelled that right. Well, I gotta go and play some games...Later....
Sunday, July 06, 2003
Yesterday was fun and filled with excitement. I had a good time and I wish that it would of went by a little slower. It went by kind of slow, but not as slow as I wanted it to. My uncle remembers when my mom was watching the fire works and all of a sudden my mom went into labor. Then I was born at 1:35 in the morning on July 5, 1987.
Saturday, July 05, 2003
Thursday, July 03, 2003
Yeah, she is pretty nice and I thought that she was going to be mean...lol..Ok now I am going to go to youth group.....Later......
I just got back from shopping and I got some clothes and some new shoes. Yep, I got new shoes and I compared them with my old shoes and my old shoes look like shit. I havn't even had them for a year and they look like shit. That's why you shouldn't buy stuff made in China. What sucks is that they don't make Converse in USA any more, so if you go to the store you would find them made in China. You may bable to find some that are made in USA, but that is only because no one bought them when they were still making them in USA. My first pair of Converse were made in USA and I still have them and they are in my room at my house. Those one's are made in USA and they don't have holes in them like the one's that I have right now. If you havn't seen the way my shoes look right now, them are kind of faded, a huge hole on the right shoe and a big hole on the left one and they are also dirty. I like them like that but with less holes, but other than that I like them. When shoes are worn in they feel better and they are not as stiff. Well, enough about shoes. I'm hot....Later.....
My PE teacher today bought every one ice-cream for us to cool down. My friend Josie -(I think I spelled that right)- used her car to drive to Stator-Bros. The teacher took the omney out of her own pocket the buy the ice cream and it wasn't cheap for the ice cream.
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
Arrival
Every year we celebrate are arrival on this earth,
And on another day we thank are moms for giving birth.
So many days to celebrate and so many people to thank.
There is always that one person who makes you heart fall and leaves a feeling inside of you that you can't describe so you leave that feeling blank.
My day of birth on this earth was my arrival.
From the day we are born until the day we die, the time that we have is unknown and our life and the time is provisional.
When our time ends, another arrival takes its place and their time commences.
Like a lot of other things our life is not immortal, so while we are here we try to make our life purposeful, but to do that we have to come to our senses,
And acknowledge the facts and that being immortal denotes there will be death.
Every one has a different opinion on life and if they want to keep pursuing to live it,
And some are soo enthusicastic and enduring to live life, but some just don't give a shit.
The world I know is the place where I was created,
And one day my time will end and my life will be annihilated.
I have ambition for life and desire for it to keep going and to pursue my life and help others to live a better life.
For some their life is smooth and soft like a cool summer breeze, but for others their life is like living in a pastoral town and is always a strife.
My arrival on this earth has repeated itself for almost 16 years.
For all my friends I thank you and I love you and I give you all three cheers.
Every year we celebrate are arrival on this earth,
And on another day we thank are moms for giving birth.
So many days to celebrate and so many people to thank.
There is always that one person who makes you heart fall and leaves a feeling inside of you that you can't describe so you leave that feeling blank.
My day of birth on this earth was my arrival.
From the day we are born until the day we die, the time that we have is unknown and our life and the time is provisional.
When our time ends, another arrival takes its place and their time commences.
Like a lot of other things our life is not immortal, so while we are here we try to make our life purposeful, but to do that we have to come to our senses,
And acknowledge the facts and that being immortal denotes there will be death.
Every one has a different opinion on life and if they want to keep pursuing to live it,
And some are soo enthusicastic and enduring to live life, but some just don't give a shit.
The world I know is the place where I was created,
And one day my time will end and my life will be annihilated.
I have ambition for life and desire for it to keep going and to pursue my life and help others to live a better life.
For some their life is smooth and soft like a cool summer breeze, but for others their life is like living in a pastoral town and is always a strife.
My arrival on this earth has repeated itself for almost 16 years.
For all my friends I thank you and I love you and I give you all three cheers.
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
Saturday night I went to tighten my belt because my pants were to lose and so I tightned it to the tightest one. Then when I got upstairs I went to get ready for bed and I noticed that my belt was broken. That really sucks because now I can't wear my dickies without wearing a big t-shirt. I need a new belt!!. I want to wear my dickies with small t-shirts.
It is soo hot outside and when me and my friend were in her car there was so much traffic. Inside of her car was hot and since we were not moving to get coller air inside the car, we were rosting. I was trying to stick my head out th ewindow so I can cool down a little, but that didn't work because there were too many damm cars in the way. I didn't want to get my head hit by a on coming car. The traffic was bad and we were just going down Gothard or that street going away from the high school that I go to. I need to cheang my shirt before I go back outside because the one that I have on right now is really hot to wear outisde in the hot air. I have two more days of for this week and three more days until fourth of Jusy and three more days until my birthday. I'm counting the days and then when there are no more days I will count the hours and then the minutes and so on and so on. I don't think that any one will do something for my birthday in my family, but who knows. The last couple of years no one has done any thing for my birthday and that would suck if they would do that for my 16th birthday. My family is weird, but I love them and I don't know what I would do without them or what I would do without my friends. I love my friends and family. I wonder if they love me....umm.....Later.........
It is soo hot outside and when me and my friend were in her car there was so much traffic. Inside of her car was hot and since we were not moving to get coller air inside the car, we were rosting. I was trying to stick my head out th ewindow so I can cool down a little, but that didn't work because there were too many damm cars in the way. I didn't want to get my head hit by a on coming car. The traffic was bad and we were just going down Gothard or that street going away from the high school that I go to. I need to cheang my shirt before I go back outside because the one that I have on right now is really hot to wear outisde in the hot air. I have two more days of for this week and three more days until fourth of Jusy and three more days until my birthday. I'm counting the days and then when there are no more days I will count the hours and then the minutes and so on and so on. I don't think that any one will do something for my birthday in my family, but who knows. The last couple of years no one has done any thing for my birthday and that would suck if they would do that for my 16th birthday. My family is weird, but I love them and I don't know what I would do without them or what I would do without my friends. I love my friends and family. I wonder if they love me....umm.....Later.........
Monday, June 30, 2003
The love that is brought by a loved one, a friend or by your parents
The constant strive for loving affection and attention of comfort. The emptiness feeling inside that occurs when your mom or dad are absent or have left the room. Your mom and dad give you this feeling that is inexplicable and no matter how hard you try to elaborate it, it becomes more and more impossible, but you become closer to the conclusion of what feeling they bring you. Your love and affection for your mom or dad is like immortality. Knowing that one day the two or three of you will disperse or dissect from each other, the love for each other will still remain and will stay locked up in your heart for eternity. Knowing that you love them to death you love them beyond death. There’s never a completion on loving some one because love never stops growing. Love is like a rose that continues to grow and grow and that never dies. Without love how do we or how can we love others? The absence of love is salvation of love and every thing that equals to love and is in the structure of love. When you can’t see your mom or dad salvation of love take’s place and then that feeling commences to create inside your body. Every thing that creates love or equals to love is every emotional feeling and every butterfly or shyness that takes place in you. That feeling that occurs when your love has arrived or you have herd their name or thought of a memory of that person. Almost inexplicable emotion, but it’s not because it’s a sign of love. One of the feelings that add up to love and isn’t the last feeling that will take place. Love takes time because there are so many different feelings in love that have to takes its place. Some find love faster then others but for other's it takes a little longer or they just don’t see that what they feel is love. For some love is blind and stays blind forever, but some love stays blind for only a little bit intil they relized the feeling that they have been feeling all along was and is love. Feelings that are apart of the structure of love are inexplicable, but that is because they don't realized that that feeling is a part of love, so the part of love that they are feeling is a part of blind love.
The constant strive for loving affection and attention of comfort. The emptiness feeling inside that occurs when your mom or dad are absent or have left the room. Your mom and dad give you this feeling that is inexplicable and no matter how hard you try to elaborate it, it becomes more and more impossible, but you become closer to the conclusion of what feeling they bring you. Your love and affection for your mom or dad is like immortality. Knowing that one day the two or three of you will disperse or dissect from each other, the love for each other will still remain and will stay locked up in your heart for eternity. Knowing that you love them to death you love them beyond death. There’s never a completion on loving some one because love never stops growing. Love is like a rose that continues to grow and grow and that never dies. Without love how do we or how can we love others? The absence of love is salvation of love and every thing that equals to love and is in the structure of love. When you can’t see your mom or dad salvation of love take’s place and then that feeling commences to create inside your body. Every thing that creates love or equals to love is every emotional feeling and every butterfly or shyness that takes place in you. That feeling that occurs when your love has arrived or you have herd their name or thought of a memory of that person. Almost inexplicable emotion, but it’s not because it’s a sign of love. One of the feelings that add up to love and isn’t the last feeling that will take place. Love takes time because there are so many different feelings in love that have to takes its place. Some find love faster then others but for other's it takes a little longer or they just don’t see that what they feel is love. For some love is blind and stays blind forever, but some love stays blind for only a little bit intil they relized the feeling that they have been feeling all along was and is love. Feelings that are apart of the structure of love are inexplicable, but that is because they don't realized that that feeling is a part of love, so the part of love that they are feeling is a part of blind love.
Sunday, June 29, 2003
Saturday, June 28, 2003
Right now it looks like I am about to go running to exercise. I have those tight shorts on and a black muscle t-shirt on and it hugs onto me, but not a lot, I can still breathe. The outfit makes me look really skinny, well I think so. At 1 o'clock I am leaving to go to the funeral thingy. I talked to my cousin last night and she said that she doesn't even want to go. If I was her I wouldn't want to go too, but it would be the last time that you get to see your mom. Her and I wrote this thing to read infront of people at the funeral and they said that only borthers can say something. I think that that really sucks becasue she is her daughter and she should beable to say something. I better go take a....Later...
Friday, June 27, 2003
Ok does any body know that one machine wear you sit down and pull down on a bar? Well, if you do I can do 100 pounds and th eother girls and only do like 20 to 40 and maybe 50, but they have a hard tie doing 50. I don't like to beanch and my first atempt yesterday I did 75 and that is becuase I didn't want to do any more because I was tired and hot...Later...
I haven't posted any thing since Tuesday. I didn't keep my word on posting every day, but oh well. For every one that comes to this site don't take life for granted because life is to short to take life and every thing for granted. Actually that is to every one in the whole world. I have to go to a feneral tomorrow because my 43 year old aunt blead to death after having her 6th child two days before. She was there in the delivery room when my mom was in labor with me and was there when I took my first breath. Her absence in the family and this world doesn't seem to click in my mind yet. It still feels like she is here, but she's not and I can't seem to process that in my mind. Know that she is gone I sitll have the memories of the good and bad times that we had and will have those in my memory for the rest of my life, but if I get old timers disease then my memory will start to fade out. I feel sorry for her children that have to grow up and spend the rest of theirs lives with out a mother. 22, 18, 11, 4, 3, and 1week are the ages of her kids. Four girls and two boys. I have been trying not to think of her death, but it is hard to ignore something that is true/real. It's like if you saw a movie with your friend and your friend said a quote from the moive and wasn't the correct wording, you would think that hay that's not how it goes because you know the right way on how they said it in the moive. Also relative to songs and other things. I got this dress -(black)- pfr the feneral and I like the way it looks and I might just weat it one of these days to youth or someting. My uncle says that it looks like a cocktail dress because of how the sleaves are, but I like that way it looks. I was going to get this other dress and it looked nice and when I looked at the size of it I was in awe, well close to awe, of the size of it. It was a size 7 and I wasn't even able to even stick my head in a size 7 before. I am glad that I can fit into smaller dresses and be comforatblt in them. Well, I am going to go now and get some ice cream because it is hot and because i have two hours of PE out in the sun I got a tan on my shoulders and my back....Later......
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Monday, June 23, 2003
:( I just found out that my aunt blead to death. :( She had here baby on Friday night and she died a couple days later...:(.....Later..:(
I don't know if any of you went to my other web page, but I posted that on Saturday we set off a fire-work that was a little bigger than a m-80. I like m-80's and I can't wait till forth of July. 12 more days until I'm 16!!.....Later....
Man is it how outside!! Summer time is nice, but I don't like the heat all to much. I am at the library and it is cool in here, way better than outside. Josh's mom drove me over here and first we went to some stores and bought some stuff. I got a shirt that says 'Runs with scissors' and other stuff. Today in PE we did relay races and I had to run two times. I hate running and I don't like running when it is hot outside. I found this hair dye that is the same color of how my hair is now and it was only $3.50. They usually are like seven dollats plus. I burned this CD yesterday and this one didn't take as long as the other one did, which was three or four hours. I hae only 53 minutes left on this computer before I have to get off. That really sucks. I better hury up. Well, today was a good day and a hot day.......................Later....
Sunday, June 22, 2003
Yesterday I had found out that my mom has pre-skin cancer. When I herd her say that I was shocked and kind of sad. She said that if she gets it taken care of it soon that it will go away. I hope that she can get it taken care of and that it won't come back. Today I went to church and my ride left in the middle of church. So afterward I had to get a ride and I did get a ride by this guy named Mike. He is a guy that goes to the church and if I didn't get a ride by him I think I would of been walking home and that would of sucked. I had a lot of fun yesterday and I didn't cry. My mom cried a lot and when she got on the buss she cried. Sean thank you for the gum........................Later.................
Saturday, June 21, 2003
At 3:30 my other uncle was leaving and he set off a firework that was bigger than a m-80. It was sweet and he gave us these other fireworks. When forth of July comes and if he is here our street will be the loundest street and I can't wait for him to come out here. My uncle Kevin and his daughter came here a little past 12 and just left at 3:30. I am having fun and I have had about three or four cups of coffee and my mom had three huge cups of coffee. When my mom has coffee she gets really hyper and kind of crazy. My mom is still here and she is going to be leaving in a half hour or an hour. I took a lot of pictures today and my other uncle flipped the camera off and I tooked one of my cousin where it looks like I am choking her. I like digital cameras because you can look at the picture after you take and she if you want to keep it on there or not. Well, I better go now............................Later....................
Friday, June 20, 2003
Tomorrow my mom is coming to my house to visit and I havn't seen her in almost a year. I don't really know if I should be happy or what. I want to be happy and when she comes and I see her, I might cry. To cry is a good thing, but I don't really want to cry. What ever happens tomorrow I hope that I enjoy myself and those around me enjoy themselves too. If any of you have clicked on the 'Hello, Good-morning' and saw the picture my hair no longer looks like that. I dyed it and I think I posted that in the last post. Oh yeah today I got kicked out of my PE class because I wasn't being as active as the other girls that I was playing basketball with and why is because for one thing I don't really like basketball and lately my left ribs have been hurting. She didn't seem to understand that and told me to go home or jog. I went home, but I first went to the coffee shop. Speaking of coffee..........Later..............
Thursday, June 19, 2003
To Sean: Actually I want you to add my other web page which is if you don't know it--> www.expressedthoughts.blogspot.com
Oh yeah and is to 'keep it' a good thing?
Thank you for adding links..ttyl..
Youth is about to start in like thirty minutes so I should get off and leave. Lately all my posts havn't really been that interesting and I havn't really written anything either. Which is kind of not me.....Gotta go..........Later........................
Oh yeah and is to 'keep it' a good thing?
Thank you for adding links..ttyl..
Youth is about to start in like thirty minutes so I should get off and leave. Lately all my posts havn't really been that interesting and I havn't really written anything either. Which is kind of not me.....Gotta go..........Later........................
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
About thirty minutes I dyed my hair and it is still wet. My hair is soft feeling........Yawn...Later.............
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
Contrary to popular belief, the last 5 or 6 times that I've "forgotten" my jacket was really because I felt like letting sarah keep it.. ;)
What else... oh yeah, Sarah if you're reading this tell me if you want me to add/remove any links.
Bai!
What else... oh yeah, Sarah if you're reading this tell me if you want me to add/remove any links.
Bai!
I hate summer school! Ok today was hot and we had to walk a mile and my ribs and my back were and still are hurting. After the school got out I went to the coffee shop that is across the street from the school. I styed there for about and hour or two and then started to walk home, but then stopped at this hair place. I used their phone and called Josh and asked if his mommy can come pick me up. Then I got a ride form them and I am now at their house typing this out and Seth is very board so I am going to go now............Later.....................
Monday, June 16, 2003
Bouncing bouncy balls in the mall is fun. Today Sean, Seth, Lizzie and I went to the mall an dounced bouncy balls inside the mall. We lost a few, but it was worth it. We did that for a while and then went to the arcade and played some games. When we were waiting for our ride Sean had this sented calone or something in his pocket and it fell out and Lizzie picked it up and then Sean tried to get it back. Then they both squeezed it and it went all ove Sean's hands. Sean wipped it on Seth and then Seth wipped it on me. When we got inside the car it smelled soooo strong. Seans's hand smelled the srongest of it and mine didn't smell at all and that is because Seth wipped it on my arm. From the mall we all went to Lizzies house and inside her house it smelled like dog and it was also hot. We all ate some food and then I suggested that we go outside. Sean, Seth and I went outside and played with the balls agian. Sean took two pictures pf Seth and then took two more pictures of me. I don't really like pictures, but they looked pretty good when I saw it on the little screen. From Lizzies house we went to chior and Sean and Seth went to Startbucks while we were in chior. Sean if you are reding this the next time I see you I will give you your jacket back. It smells like the stuff, but not that strong. After chior Lizzie gave me a ride home. I put icy hot on my back and that stuuf doesn't feel good and it doesn't help any. The hot shower that I took didn't help either. I had a good and fun day...............Later.....................................
Sunday, June 15, 2003
I'm going to church. I am finally going to go to church and my uncle said yes to it. I am waiting for my ride.........Later...................
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Friday, June 13, 2003
Today was boring at first, but then I went to Josh's and hung out with Seth and him and then we all went to Lisa's. At her house we watched a movie and then we jumped on the trampaline. Try jumping after you go on it and you can't. It feels really weird. I had fun and I still need to get my bike back from Josh's...........Later...............
Thursday, June 12, 2003
Schools out for the sumer...Schools out for ever..The schools been blown to pieces. How ever that song goes. I am soooo glad that school is ot and I am going to youth tonight. Man is it hot in this room. I'm not wearing black...Yeah I am just rambaling...I think I better go..Oh wait.....When I was putting on my skates to skate home, this guy ran by kind of fast and then he jumped this guy and started to sock the shit out of him. I was kind of interesting, but for some reason fights never really grabed my atention...Later.....................
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
I had t take a 150 question test in my first period class and then in third I had to clean a hole kitchen. I got a 100% on it though, so it was could for the cause. I have to dye my hair, the roots are showing. I need to go to the store adn buy some hair dye. Every time I wash my hair it gets more red. Way doesn't it make my roots red. lol...Yeah I have to go now...There's only one day of school left!!!.......Later........
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Today in Ms. Omolets class she sent me out and made me go to the vice principles office. I was soo bored just sitting there in the chair, waiting for the bell to ring. Tomorrow I have to go to her class again and that really scuks. Today in PE I had to run a mile and I made it in 14 minutes. I am tired and I want to go to sleep..I want school to get out already...Later........
Monday, June 09, 2003
When people age or get old they lose their sense of humor. The oldness replaces the cildness and seriousness replaces the humor. Today in my foods class a guy named Chris was about to sit down and I pulled the chair up from under him, right on time and he fell to the ground. I started to laugh soo hard and them other people started to laugh too. Then the teacher ruins the fun that we were having and calls my sister, this girl named Brooklyn, and I over and asks who pulled the chair? I said, "I did." She was like I'm goiing to give you a referrel. I said, "I think that is stupid and I don't care if you give me a referrel and I'm just saying that it is stupid." She said, "You could paralyze some one by pulling a chair from under them and make them fall." Chris was fine agterward and she was overeacting. Chris may just have a sore ass, but he isn't paralyzed. I hate this teacher!! This is my second referrel in her class and the first one was really really stupid. I didn't put my hair up with arubber band, so she sent me to the vice principle's office and gave me a referrel. Rubber bands get stuck in my hair and then I end up having to cut my hair to dam thing out. I have a bad experience with rubber bands and gum. Gum used to get stuck in my hair all the time when I was little and I had to cut it out every time, so y hair was never really even. The teachers name is Ms. Omolet and she has short, short hair, bossy and her herself is short. Her class is boring and very quiet. She doesn't let any one talk to one another or play around at all. This one time this guy named Ryan, who sits all the way across the room from me and we turned the page of the news paper that we were reading.When you turn the page of a news paper it makes noise and when Ryan and I did that she said, "Quit making so much noise!" Then she made up all put the news papers away. Trying to have any kind of fun of anything relative to the word "fun" is impossible in her class. I'm soo gald that I only have her class like two more times. Later.......................
Sunday, June 08, 2003
Umm....Umm..Chicken.Yeah I am eating chicken right now and it is pretty good, but I've had better. Yeah I'm going to go skating later, but only to go back to my house. Chicken good..TRY IT...Later...........
Saturday, June 07, 2003
I'm done!! I am finaly done with the CD and now I am going to go listen to it. I was on working on it for like four hours..Later.......
Yeah right now I am downloading songs to burn a CD. I have been working on it for awhile. I can't wait to be done with it so I can listen to it. Yeah I am going to go back to downloading..........Later......
Friday, June 06, 2003
I am in the library and it is supposed to be closed. I can't wait for school to be out. Right now I am supposed to be in Math class, but I got a pass to go to the locker room to get my roller blades out and I first went by the locker room, but then I came to the library and when I am done in here I am going to go get my blades. I have to jurry up because the bell is going to ring soon. The bell rings at 12:15 and it is 11:57. Four moree days of school!!! Hell yeah!!! I still have two more years of high school, but that is if I pass all my classes and get all of the credits that I need. Right now I am behind in credits and the school is still waiting for my other transcript from my other school. I don't even know how many credits that I have total, but I know that I am behind in credits. I pretty much fucked up in my freshmen year of high school. Yeah I think I better get going.....Later...........
Thursday, June 05, 2003
I neer knew that roller blading every day woiuld be soo tiring. Man every mornig I am soo tired, more tired than I usually am in the morning. I only have five more days of school left and then I am free, well not really because I have to go to summer school. The bad thing about taking summer school is that I have to take PE. It is going to be very hot, but I hope not. Next year for school I am going to be taking Wed Site Development. So when I get out of this class that I will be taking or even during, I will be making my web sites better. I will be so tired toimorrow morning. I still have toskate home and it is going to be kind of dark out. I'm not scared of the dark, but if it its dark out I won't beavble to see where I am skating. I seriously don't want to fall or tripp, I'm wearing a skirt. Yeah Sarah wearing a skirt, but some of you have seen me in a dress and I think the first time that I went to yourth group I wore a skirt. Roller blading isn't that hard wearing a skirt. It allows you to morve easier. Ok I think that I have shared to much information...I will go now.......Later...........
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
I have been praying that I get into shape and now I am getting into shape by roller balding.
I took one of those quizes that were on Sean's web page to go to and I took this one that would tell be what kind of drug I am or to be on or something like that and I got a shroom..
I took one of those quizes that were on Sean's web page to go to and I took this one that would tell be what kind of drug I am or to be on or something like that and I got a shroom..
Right now I am at school in the library. I want to go roller blading already and for that to happen school has to be out. Damm school.....lol...School is good for learning stuuf, but when you want to go do some thing else you can't until school is out. Which that really sucks. "You can' t always get what ya' want, but if you try some time you just might find..get what ya' need...oooohhh yeah.." Or how ever that song goes. Yeah I better get going...........Later................
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Today I learned how to jump over curbs and off of the curbs with my roller blades. I used to just roller blade off of them, but now I can just go off of them without falling and jump up with both feet onto the curb. Me and Lizzie were at this elementary school yesterday and she was skate boarding and I was roller blading. Lizzie learned how to jump the curb with her skate board. We are going to go there again tomorrow, I can't wait. If I keep roller balding every day I am going to get better at it. Gotta run.....Later..................
Monday, June 02, 2003
I am at Lizzie's house right now just posting and she is watching TV. Me and her skated from my house to her house after school and we are kind of tired. It is soo hot right now and this small room that I am doesn't really help. I havn't written any thing since like Wednesday or Thursday and what I mean by that is in my writing folder not the web site. I wouldn't really let that happen. I post every day and I am going to keep my word. Until next time..Later.....
Sunday, June 01, 2003
Today I went roller blading to Lizzies house and it took me like thirty mintues. When I got to her house it was soo damm hot and I was sweeting a lot. When I got to her house her "guy friend" was over, but I already knew that. We were not there for long until we had to drive her friend home. Then when we got back to her house we went skating together at this school around the block. We were there for like and hour and a half and then we went back to her house. Then I got ready to leave and I started to skate home. When I was going around the corner this guy was playing loud music in his car -(AFI)- and I asked him what way he was going and her said down Beach and I ask him if he could give me a ride and then he said yes. I was glad because I didn't feel like skating all the way to my house. He drove me to Subway, which is cool because my house is behind subway. Then I jumped over the wall with my skates on and got inside my house, got something to drink & eat. I flopped down on the couch and just sat there. Sleep sleep.....Later...........................
**Now a message from the admin.**
Hey sarah.. I added a section of links of your loving freinds.
Tell me if you want me to add/remove any.
Thanks for listening. - Sean.
Hey sarah.. I added a section of links of your loving freinds.
Tell me if you want me to add/remove any.
Thanks for listening. - Sean.
Saturday, May 31, 2003
When I wemt to Wes's house I played this game on xBOX and it was a car game and I like car games, but not all of them. You can choose to race or crash. I didn both. On the race on I got I think 27 million dollars in damages on the cars that I made crash. Not bad for my first time, don't you think? Then on the racing one I had got first place every time that I had played it. Ryan thought that I was a good player and I said that I like car games and I meant it. I want to play the game again!!! Oh, yeah Sean I feel sorry for you because you can't play games. Knowing that I am a girl, I like a lot of things that guys like and girls are not one of them.
Today was a pretty interesting day............Later..........
Today was a pretty interesting day............Later..........
I just got back from ice skating and going to my friends birthday party. The people that I went ice skating are Sean Ryan, Jeremy, Josh, and Wes. I don't know how to spell that last name listed. I was the only one that didn't fall, but my foot was herting at first and then it stopped, I think from the coldness. When I was in the car my arms were burning and I don't really know why. We all just hanged out at the ice skating rink until like 3:00 and then Jeremy took Josh home. When Jeremy got back then we went and took Sean home. Some one had asked where I was going after and then Sean was like yeah Sarah's going to my house. So then when we got to Sean's house Ryan got out of the car and was waiting for me to get out. He asked me am I getting out and I said no. Sean at the time was waiting for Ryan to come around to get in the front. Ryan thought that I was going to Sean's house because of the comment that Sean had made when we were at the ice skating rink. It was just a misunderstanding. I had a good time and I am glad that I didn't even fall. Josh didn't go ice skating, he was just sitting around watching us all ice skate. I would have been kind of board sitting there watching others skate, but watching Sean, Ryan, Jeremy, and Wes was pretty interesting. When all of us raced, Sean and I think it was Jeremy hit the wall soo hard and it was really loud. Then when we were skating back Ryan tried to stop by spinning, but he was going to fast and ran into the wall. It didn't sound or look good. I hope that every one else had fun.
If I wrote anythig to affend the people that I metioned, sorry.
I still have the rest of the day and I might go roller blading, but I might not because it is hot and the sun is out. I might get a tan.....lol.....Later........
If I wrote anythig to affend the people that I metioned, sorry.
I still have the rest of the day and I might go roller blading, but I might not because it is hot and the sun is out. I might get a tan.....lol.....Later........
Friday, May 30, 2003
Lunch just ended and I am about to go to Carl's Jr. with my friends and then I am going to go to Barns & Noble again. Jim Davis the creater of Garfeild is going to be there. My sister and I are going to rollerblade over there. Right now I am waiting for Lizzie to get finished with her AR test and then I am going to leave for Carl's Jr. Gotta go...Later.............
Thursday, May 29, 2003
My school didn't start until 9:30 this morning and also applies for tomorrow morning. I like not having to get up at 6:45 for a change and getting to sleep in on a school day. Right now I am at Lizzies house and her and I went to Jack in the Box earlier, was her treat. Thank you Lizzie!!! I had realized yesterday that I didn'y post on expresssedthoughts web site on 5-27-03. When I saw that I was like I had posted for that day, but then I thought about it. I didn't post for that site I had posted for this one. Next time, well hopefully there won't be a next time, I will make sure that I am posting on the right site. Today was actually a good day, better than yesterday. On Tuesday I thought that it was Monday and then on Wednesday I thought that it was Thursday. I am missing Tuesday and Wednesday in my week. I wondrer what day I would think it is tomorrow? I'll wait and see. For now I am going to think about today. I was going to stay at school until the library closed to post a lot, but I went with Lizzie after school to Ross and then Jack in the Box, which by the way, was still fun. The library isn't really that fun, but they have computers and being on the computer is fun; so is posting. My math grade went back down to a 20% and it was up to a 31%. I think it is because of that quiz(s) that I didn't take. Yep that's the reason. Gotta run....Later..
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
Ok I just got back. We ended up going not only to Barns & Noble, but to almost every store that was over there in that center/parking lot. Oh, my god did that hurt. I was just drinking a Starbuck Vanilla Crème Frappacchino –(I think I spelled that correctly)- and then I put a warm biscuit in my mouth to see how it would taste because I was kind of hungry and with the mixture of cold and hot, my teeth received an uncomfortable pain. It didn’t feel good at all and it didn’t only last for a minute it lasted for like two or three minutes. Don’t ever put something hot in your mouth after having something cold in your mouth, it doesn’t feel good. I went to a store that I think was called ZanyBrainy
Rightnow I am about to go to Barns & Noble, so I can't really write that much, lucky for you. It is sooo hot outside. I need something to cool be down. By the way Lizzie I am sorry and I love you. Yeah ok I am going to go now.
Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Well, I am still at Lizzies and we just got done taking some black and white pictures.
Well, can't post much now. Later....
Well, can't post much now. Later....
I am at Lizzies house for a change. I think I might keep this change...Sorry Josh. I like to be around my best friend when I get the time to be around her. I love you Lizzie!!! I's surprised that I am not tired from this weekend. I thought that today I was going to be tired, but I'm not. Yesterday I was up for only 12 hours. I went to bed at like twelve and then the next morning I woke up at 6:45am. When I woke up I wasn't even tired. What's the hell is going on! I am usually completely worn out and tired in the morning.
Right now I am chatting on line with Ryan and this other girl. I forgot her name, how sad. Ok, well she just logged off.
Right now I am chatting on line with Ryan and this other girl. I forgot her name, how sad. Ok, well she just logged off.
Monday, May 26, 2003
Ealier today around a little past one o'clock, I was steam cleaning my carpet and I got finished at two thirty. The carpet is still wet. That thing it so hard to push and pull. My hand got sore from it.
Knowing the true self of another is better than knowing what appears to be true.
With deceit the world will end up with chaos.
In the begginning where there is no truth, in the end there will end up being chaos
Living in a world with false appearence no one would know the real person that is shown, but what is observed.
The truth will end up being told one day and when it is herd not every one will like it.
Not every can handle the truth or can except the truth or likes the truth..
Knowing the true self of another is better than knowing what appears to be true.
With deceit the world will end up with chaos.
In the begginning where there is no truth, in the end there will end up being chaos
Living in a world with false appearence no one would know the real person that is shown, but what is observed.
The truth will end up being told one day and when it is herd not every one will like it.
Not every can handle the truth or can except the truth or likes the truth..
What a laugh.
My brother, sister, and I were just laughing at my uncle trying to put the chicken on the grill. There was a lot of smoke and he was getting smoked out. He continued to put the chicken on the grill, while getting smoked out. Then when he tried to come in through the sliding door, he couldn't open it with his hands because he had sause on them so he tried to open it with his foot. He still couldn't get it open and then he tried to open it with his hands, but still couldn't open it because my brother had locked the sliding door. We were laughing for awhile, but then we stopped to return to the movie we were watching, Star Wars-Episode II-Attact of The Clones on DVD.
My brother, sister, and I were just laughing at my uncle trying to put the chicken on the grill. There was a lot of smoke and he was getting smoked out. He continued to put the chicken on the grill, while getting smoked out. Then when he tried to come in through the sliding door, he couldn't open it with his hands because he had sause on them so he tried to open it with his foot. He still couldn't get it open and then he tried to open it with his hands, but still couldn't open it because my brother had locked the sliding door. We were laughing for awhile, but then we stopped to return to the movie we were watching, Star Wars-Episode II-Attact of The Clones on DVD.
Sunday, May 25, 2003
I am soo full are eating just a little bit of chex mix..ok well, it wasn't only a little bit it was a hole lot.
Today Ryan, Jeremy, Josh and I wre suppost to go ice skating, but when we got there it was closed to the public. I really wanted togo ice skating and so did Ryan. After we went to the first one we had went to a different one and that one was also closed, well, a game just started. After tath Ryan and Jeremy went home and me and Josh went to Josh's house. That is where I am typing this out. And I still have to go post on omy other sites soon because I have to be home by eight o'clock.
Saturday, May 24, 2003
My sister is such a bitch!!
Just now my sister was like, "I was on the computer first, so get off!" Minute later I said, "Well you are going to be standing there for awhile. Can't you just wait ten minutes and then I will be done. Last time you were on the computer for four hours and this whole time that I was on the computer you were down stairs so you weren't on the computer you just had a window open." Then she said, "I hate people like you, I can't belive that I am related to you!" Then I said, "Your acting like a Bitch so stop! Door slams.
When that happened I was talking on the phone with Josh.
After she went down stairs she kept paging the phone and she wouldn't stop. So I told Josh to hold on and I will call him back. When I hung up with him I was already down stairs. When I got down there my sister threw a bear can at me and got beer on me and now I smell like beer. She was telling me that I am rude and I was like I am rude your the one who came up there telling me to get off the computer because you need to use it when I was still in the middle of doing something. Your the one acting like a fucken bitch and just because you can get on the fucken computer you act like this and every time when you don't get your fucken way you act like a bitch! Thank you I now smell like beer. She said, "Well, why don't you go wash your ugly ass off!" I flicked her off and told her to stick it up her ass and fuck off you bitch! Then I had went up stairs and went back on the computer. I think that she lost and I won becasue I am on the computer and she's not. I was soo tempted to just kick her ass, but knowing her she would be a big ass baby and cry.
Arn't sisters just lovely......
Just now my sister was like, "I was on the computer first, so get off!" Minute later I said, "Well you are going to be standing there for awhile. Can't you just wait ten minutes and then I will be done. Last time you were on the computer for four hours and this whole time that I was on the computer you were down stairs so you weren't on the computer you just had a window open." Then she said, "I hate people like you, I can't belive that I am related to you!" Then I said, "Your acting like a Bitch so stop! Door slams.
When that happened I was talking on the phone with Josh.
After she went down stairs she kept paging the phone and she wouldn't stop. So I told Josh to hold on and I will call him back. When I hung up with him I was already down stairs. When I got down there my sister threw a bear can at me and got beer on me and now I smell like beer. She was telling me that I am rude and I was like I am rude your the one who came up there telling me to get off the computer because you need to use it when I was still in the middle of doing something. Your the one acting like a fucken bitch and just because you can get on the fucken computer you act like this and every time when you don't get your fucken way you act like a bitch! Thank you I now smell like beer. She said, "Well, why don't you go wash your ugly ass off!" I flicked her off and told her to stick it up her ass and fuck off you bitch! Then I had went up stairs and went back on the computer. I think that she lost and I won becasue I am on the computer and she's not. I was soo tempted to just kick her ass, but knowing her she would be a big ass baby and cry.
Arn't sisters just lovely......
Friday, May 23, 2003
I just got back from seeing the Matrix Reloaded. It was pretty good. I have a really bad head ache right now. Inside the moive was dark and then when I got outside it was light out and my eyes didn't like the light. When I went to the movies before and I came out it was dark out. This time it wasn't. Yesterday I was talking to my moms friend and she gave me an idea of to make a book, but not just any book, a book of every thing that I have written. Well, not really every thing that I have ever written, but most of it. I actually might do it. I want to do it. Today in my foods class the teacher asked me if I had my book and I said no that I had for got it. She said how can you for get to bring your book. And then I told her that it is easy to for get to bring a book. Then she called me over and sasked me what I said becasue she didn't hear me. I told her that it is easy to forget to bring a book. When I went to go sit back down I got back up and told her that it is easy to forget to bring a book when you got hit in the head with a tennis racket. The look on her face was funny. I had took a test earlier in first and I got a 25/45. I didn't remember learning any of this. I am pretty sure that I failed. Well, I have to go and I might post later, but I am not sure. Later...
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Today I was talking with three other people at three different times with a mic on the computer. I didn't really hear them and I bet they didn’t really hear me, but I'm pretty sure that Ryan herd me. This is soo not my week. I have hurt myself to much this week. Tuesday I got hit with the tennis racket, this morning I pulled the muscle behind my knee and behind my thigh and on my way to school I took a long time to get there. I was about twenty minutes late for school, but it was PE so I didn’t really care. The lucky thing was that I didn’t have to fun. I walked. When were done with the laps, me and my friend were playing two square. We were pretending that we were back in elementary school. It was pretty fun. Every one else was playing basket-ball. We were the unique individuals. We didn’t want to do what every one else was doing, so we did our own thing. The balls were really dirty. Our hands were almost all black and dirty. I think that my week has gone good except the painful things that occurred in it. I am glad that tomorrow is Friday, and yeah I know that I say that every week, but I am glad that it is Friday every time. I have eaten too much today. Today I have had the following:
Cup of Coffee, bean and cheese burrito, bagel and cream cheese, more coffee, huge slice of pizza, a big beef jerky stick, can of slim fast, and chicken and rice.
I think I have eaten too much today. I am really full. I don’t think I should eat any more today. What do you think?
Cup of Coffee, bean and cheese burrito, bagel and cream cheese, more coffee, huge slice of pizza, a big beef jerky stick, can of slim fast, and chicken and rice.
I think I have eaten too much today. I am really full. I don’t think I should eat any more today. What do you think?
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Never eat tons of cookie dough because it makes you sick in the stomach believe me I did it today.
Besides that today was pretty good, sense I did dint have a fifth period, me Mickey and some other people went to Carl’s Junior. Me and Mickey ordered a large vanilla shake.
After that we went back to the school josh’s mom gave Mickey and I a ride to Lizzies.
On our way there it was so hot in the car and when we got to Lizzies it was even hotter.
After we hanged out there for awhile we left to head to cell group first we dropped off Mickey.
When we got to the cell we thought cell got canceled because no one was there.
But then it turned out that we were just the first ones there.
Cell group was pretty good, better than all the other ones.
Considering that that this time was only my second time.
ok well gotta to, post later...
Besides that today was pretty good, sense I did dint have a fifth period, me Mickey and some other people went to Carl’s Junior. Me and Mickey ordered a large vanilla shake.
After that we went back to the school josh’s mom gave Mickey and I a ride to Lizzies.
On our way there it was so hot in the car and when we got to Lizzies it was even hotter.
After we hanged out there for awhile we left to head to cell group first we dropped off Mickey.
When we got to the cell we thought cell got canceled because no one was there.
But then it turned out that we were just the first ones there.
Cell group was pretty good, better than all the other ones.
Considering that that this time was only my second time.
ok well gotta to, post later...
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Oh, yeah I just remembered that the nurse gave me a sheet of paper that has a list of things to tell if you are suffering from a concussion. So ladies and gentleman I might have a concussion.
Craziest thing happened to me today. Actually I wouldn’t call it crazy, I would call it painful. In PE today we had to play tennis and it was all going good until, Lizzie accidentally whacked me in the face with the tennis racket. She went to back hand the ball, but she ended up back handing my face. That shit hurt like a bitch. I yelled that out after like two minutes. Lizzie was asking me if I was alright and I was like yeah, but it hurts like hell! I was and still and is in a lot of pain. Like after three minutes after I got whacked in the head, my forehead started to develop a bump on it. My head still hurts and there is still a bump. What sucks is that I can’t even take any aspirin, but the good part of it all it that I got to go home early. I am glad that it isn't bruised. All there is is a big some what notice able bump! It is right above my right eye brow.
Watch out for tennis rackets or people holding tennis racktes. Better yet, watch out for Lizzie! No hard feelings Lizzie. I love you...
Watch out for tennis rackets or people holding tennis racktes. Better yet, watch out for Lizzie! No hard feelings Lizzie. I love you...
Monday, May 19, 2003
Ok I didn't tell you about the third one and that is because I didn't put it as a public bog, but I do have the other web page.
Ok this may seem or sound a little crazy or may be a little stupid, but I just created another web site. I now have four and three e-mail addresses. I think by now I have enough…wouldn't you think? Besides that I went to Carl’s Jr. earlier with two of my friends, one girl and one guy. I don’t even know the girls name. I need to find out though. I had to use her cell phone twice to call for my ride. We handed out there for more than an hour. It was pretty fun. I hope to do it again sometime. I hate my cooking teacher!!! She is such a Bitch!!!! All she does is boss every one around and tell people what she wants them to do and expects them to listen. I really don’t like her, she acts like is a spoiled rotten Bitch. Well, the bitch part is right. I was soo tired when I woke up this morning. All weekend I was busy organizing and stuff. I wanted to sleep in this morning…oh wait that’s all mornings. I was late for my first class to day, but only by like two minutes. When the bell rang I was right outside of the school. If I get to school at that time tomorrow it wouldn’t matter because I have PE first and we don’t start class until 15 minutes after the bell rings. Oh, yeah, I am not grounded any more except, it doesn’t feel like I am. How weird. I hate two of my classes tomorrow. Math and PE, my two worst subjects. Well, I gotta go post on my other sites. Later……..
Sunday, May 18, 2003
To day I finally got towash the Culass. I am still a little wet. Well, just my pants. Today was pretty good. I had went to Starbucks with my friends and put up some pictures. I can't typ ethat much because I only have a certain amount of time to be on the computer right now. To sum it up I am glad that I got to wash the car and that my house doesn't look all cluttered. I am going to be soo tired tomorrow..............yyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnn....
Saturday, May 17, 2003
Today was a busy day. From about 11 or so my sister, brother, uncle and I have been going through shit, cleaning, organizing, unpacking and putting up pictures. I puc up a lot of pictures today. Which look pretty cool. There's this one that is from July 13, 1930. It is a picture of Santa Monica back then. I didn't get to put that one up because the back is falling out, but I did get to put up another one of Santa Monica back in the 1950's. After we were pretty much done, my brothere and my uncle started cooking hamburgers one the grill. I am really full, I had two of them and so did my brother. Today my mom had called twice, but the first time I didn't get to talk to her. I havn't seen her since late July. If any of those who went to my house before and see the way it is right now you will be amazed. I like the way it looks right now. I don't know if we are still going to be doing what we did today, but I an pretty sure that we are. Comes Monday and I am going to be tired. Lucky I don't have PE. that day. Short day for me. I still have to do my homework and do other things. Like sleep and take a.. Well, today was pretty good and I hope that tomorrow will be better. Ok I am going to go post on my other web page and check my e-mail. Later.....................
Friday, May 16, 2003
Which are better to you the Classics or the New.
School is out and I am still here. What a dummy you might say. I need to be still at school so I can type this.
Today pretty much sucked, but it might get better. Actually it was alright, besides school.
Tomorrow I hope to wash a 1975 Cutlass Ols. If I do I get to get all wet and stuff...
I really want to wash it because it needs to be and I want to get wet.
I don't realy have that much to post today, but I need to get something for my other site.
I have things that I have written, I just need to pick one and post it.
I should start to go look....I'll be back later.
Ryan I hope you feel better........
Watch out for "Jeeps!" or just cars in general........
Today pretty much sucked, but it might get better. Actually it was alright, besides school.
Tomorrow I hope to wash a 1975 Cutlass Ols. If I do I get to get all wet and stuff...
I really want to wash it because it needs to be and I want to get wet.
I don't realy have that much to post today, but I need to get something for my other site.
I have things that I have written, I just need to pick one and post it.
I should start to go look....I'll be back later.
Ryan I hope you feel better........
Watch out for "Jeeps!" or just cars in general........
Thursday, May 15, 2003
Ok, well I finally got to go on the computer. I'm not going to be on for long because I'm tired. My eyes burn and are heavy.
Tomorrow is Friday, the last day of the school week. Weekends are not always good and why is because if you don't have anything to do you get bored or if your grounded you can't go any where. Besides all that I like the weekends. I get to sleep in and relax. Well, I wouldn't say relax, but I don't have to worry about waking up the next day for school. I think I have said this before so I am going to stop.
In my foods class we got are apple pie back and it was good, but the filling was not that good. I think I put too much lemon juice. Tomorrow I have a test in my sixth period class. I don't really like tests, but if I know the stuff it's not that bad. When I pass the tests I feel kind of smart and happy that I passed instead of failing. Well, I'm going to go now and see if I have any e-mail. Later.............................................................................
Tomorrow is Friday, the last day of the school week. Weekends are not always good and why is because if you don't have anything to do you get bored or if your grounded you can't go any where. Besides all that I like the weekends. I get to sleep in and relax. Well, I wouldn't say relax, but I don't have to worry about waking up the next day for school. I think I have said this before so I am going to stop.
In my foods class we got are apple pie back and it was good, but the filling was not that good. I think I put too much lemon juice. Tomorrow I have a test in my sixth period class. I don't really like tests, but if I know the stuff it's not that bad. When I pass the tests I feel kind of smart and happy that I passed instead of failing. Well, I'm going to go now and see if I have any e-mail. Later.............................................................................
Well, school just got out forever one else, but I have been out of school since 11:56. I have been on the computer. I have been on since 12:30. It is now 2:25. I hope you enjoy the pictures of classic cars. I like not having a fifth period. In my third period class today I had my foot on the bottom of my sister’s chair and I pulled my foot backward and my shoe ripped more. Now I have this really big hole on my shoe. I really need new shoes now. Now there are a lot of people in the library. Hopefully they leave soon or I will probably go to another computer. I don't mind the people -(that much)- it's just that they are crowding me!!! I am going to go to another computer now. Be back to post in a few. Later.
Another Mustang pic.
1964-1/2 Convertible. Titled as a 1965, D code engine. Engine replaced (unknown) with a 289 2V. 4 speed transmission, generator, power steering. Restored 22 years ago, still in good condition. No rust. White/Parchment interior with white power top. Runs great -- no mechanical problems. Stored in winters, always garaged, not driven on rainy days. All seams align except for drivers door (see picture) - possibily needs new hinge. Drivers door panel needs paint touchup. One snap missing on boot cover.
Corvette pic.
1976 Corvette, vg condition,L-48 350,4-speed,t-tops,ps,pb,pw,tilt telescopic steering column,am-fm cassette,ralley wheels,new tires. excellent Blk leather custom trim interior.98,000 original miles.only 3,389 produced in code 56 Bright yellow.Runs and looks great.
More cars:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.
13.
14.
1964-1/2 Convertible. Titled as a 1965, D code engine. Engine replaced (unknown) with a 289 2V. 4 speed transmission, generator, power steering. Restored 22 years ago, still in good condition. No rust. White/Parchment interior with white power top. Runs great -- no mechanical problems. Stored in winters, always garaged, not driven on rainy days. All seams align except for drivers door (see picture) - possibily needs new hinge. Drivers door panel needs paint touchup. One snap missing on boot cover.
Corvette pic.
1976 Corvette, vg condition,L-48 350,4-speed,t-tops,ps,pb,pw,tilt telescopic steering column,am-fm cassette,ralley wheels,new tires. excellent Blk leather custom trim interior.98,000 original miles.only 3,389 produced in code 56 Bright yellow.Runs and looks great.
More cars:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.
13.
14.
Previous Posts
- Well, Albertsons sucks. I get paid 6.75 an hour to...
- Long time no post I got a new job working at Albe...
- Baseball. Two weeks ago me and my family had went...
- I'M FINALLY 17!
- ……LOST……..IN……..ACTION…… I’m lost in my own maze....
- celtic cross celtic knot web ring skin ar...
- Design
- The Miracle Of Friendship Once in a while Sist...
- Cousin
- Footprints
Archives
- 04/27/2003 - 05/04/2003
- 05/04/2003 - 05/11/2003
- 05/11/2003 - 05/18/2003
- 05/18/2003 - 05/25/2003
- 05/25/2003 - 06/01/2003
- 06/01/2003 - 06/08/2003
- 06/08/2003 - 06/15/2003
- 06/15/2003 - 06/22/2003
- 06/22/2003 - 06/29/2003
- 06/29/2003 - 07/06/2003
- 07/06/2003 - 07/13/2003
- 07/13/2003 - 07/20/2003
- 07/20/2003 - 07/27/2003
- 07/27/2003 - 08/03/2003
- 08/03/2003 - 08/10/2003
- 08/10/2003 - 08/17/2003
- 08/17/2003 - 08/24/2003
- 08/24/2003 - 08/31/2003
- 08/31/2003 - 09/07/2003
- 09/07/2003 - 09/14/2003
- 09/14/2003 - 09/21/2003
- 09/28/2003 - 10/05/2003
- 10/05/2003 - 10/12/2003
- 10/12/2003 - 10/19/2003
- 10/26/2003 - 11/02/2003
- 11/02/2003 - 11/09/2003
- 11/30/2003 - 12/07/2003
- 12/14/2003 - 12/21/2003
- 01/11/2004 - 01/18/2004
- 01/25/2004 - 02/01/2004
- 02/08/2004 - 02/15/2004
- 02/22/2004 - 02/29/2004
- 02/29/2004 - 03/07/2004
- 04/18/2004 - 04/25/2004
- 05/02/2004 - 05/09/2004
- 05/09/2004 - 05/16/2004
- 05/23/2004 - 05/30/2004
- 05/30/2004 - 06/06/2004
- 06/20/2004 - 06/27/2004
- 07/04/2004 - 07/11/2004
- 08/22/2004 - 08/29/2004
- 10/03/2004 - 10/10/2004
- 10/24/2004 - 10/31/2004
